So this is what I'm going through right now,ever since I got this new job. Metathesiophobia . I've always loved the routine,and now seeing that everything is changed,I have almost no time left,I'm undecided as to what I should do with my life,I can't even think of a job that I would like,I've been used to being "free" all my life and now..it's,don't know,it doesn't feel right at all,I constantly feel depressed and anxiety kicks in. Kinda sucks how everyone is going on their own path,friends,relatives and so on,I don't like it,not one bit. I'm used to seeing everyone everyday,knowing they are all here in the same city,with no obligations and so on. Maybe I'll snap out of it,but I really don't feel alright. I Don't really know what I'm supposed to do,I can't just quit the job like that.. I guess I need a job that allows me to go everywhere I want,whenever I want. I can't think of any other job that I could enjoy,and I also hate "abandoned" places. I could never live outside the city,I only feel good in crowded areas
"This specific phobia can reduce one’s will to live; Metathesiophobes often feel that they have no control over their lives owing to constant changes. S/he tends to live in the past and may also be depressed. Their phobia makes them unwilling to move, to progress or to change anything from routine. This can severely impact one’s professional and personal lives." ... shit.